Today, I released my second novel out into the wild, and it’s a bit surreal and almost shockingly normal-feeling compared to the release of my first book.
With The Brass Giant, I was terrified of failure. Terrified of everything that might go wrong. I felt like I was floundering in the abyss, not knowing what was ahead of me, barely remembering what was behind me. It was hard to find the joy in sharing my words and my world with other people. I was excited, sure, but underneath it all, I was scared of what would become of my little book, neurotically checking my rankings every five minutes and seeing if any new reviews had popped up since I last looked. I was terrified someone would hate it. I didn’t know what to do if someone hated it—if everyone hated it. I poured my blood, sweat, and tears into that book, and I was so proud of what I had accomplished, that the slightest prospect of failure was devastating to me.
Now, with the release of The Guild Conspiracy, whatever fear of failure that clung to me in the days of The Brass Giant’s release has found nowhere to roost this time. I’m no longer scared, no longer worried. I don’t feel like an imposter, a failure just waiting to be found out. I may have poured my blood, sweat, and tears into the first book, but the second book contains my heart and soul. There’s more of me in this book than I realized when I first started writing it—and it was a scary book to write, a hard book to write, so much more difficult than The Brass Giant ever was, and every ounce of that fear of failure and self-doubt and trepidation that plagued me during the writing of it is now imbued in every page, every sentence, every word. I poured myself into this book, and no matter what happens now, I know that I did everything I could to make this book a success—from the words on the page to the efforts I’ve put into sharing it with the rest of the world.
The Guild Conspiracy is a story that was five years in the making, from the moment I finished The Brass Giant until today, and I couldn’t be more proud of that story. I’m proud of myself for finishing it. I’m proud of the work I put into it. And I’m proud of the results.
So today marks another book complete, another release day come and gone.
It certainly won’t be the last, but I couldn’t be happier to have made it this far.
About The Guild Conspiracy:
In the face of impossible odds, can one girl stem the tides of war?
It has been six months since clockwork engineer Petra Wade destroyed an automaton designed for battle, narrowly escaping with her life. But her troubles are far from over. Her partner on the project, Emmerich Goss, has been sent away to France, and his father, Julian, is still determined that a war machine will be built. Forced to create a new device, Petra subtly sabotages the design in the hopes of delaying the war, but sabotage like this isn’t just risky: it’s treason. And with a soldier, Braith, assigned to watch her every move, it may not be long before Julian finds out what she’s done.
Now she just has to survive long enough to find another way to stop the war before her sabotage is discovered and she’s sentenced to hang for crimes against the empire. But Julian’s plans go far deeper than she ever realized … war is on the horizon, and it will take everything Petra has to stop it in this fast-paced, thrilling sequel to The Brass Giant.